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hello??? is this thing still on??? ive finally managed to land a job (only took me 7 months!) and weve moved into the house and sorta almost settled in (though no housewarming YET) and all that fun jazz. work is good - quiet and dull but good. im enjoying myself. my colleagues are pretty decent, weve hung out a few times and ive crashed at one (well two since they are housemates) a couple of times. i think sometimes im a little too old, but it seems to work. im close to a couple (d & a) so thats good, they just work on totally different shifts from me so it makes me feel slightly left out or like maybe im miss reading their signals. i dont want to be making an ass with people i need to work with daily - its embarassing. im sure these people are my friends but i might just be expecting more so soon and it needs to happen. i need to stop being so paranoid. maybe speak to the dr about going back on my anti-anxiety meds - which i think is the root of me feeling so self-concious (ive butchered that - yay to posting from ie!) about those around me. i feel like im 16 all over again and trying to impress people. ugh. i know i dont have to and should take things as they come, but i dunno. i havent felt this nervous and anxious in a few years. its really pissing me off. grrr. i dont want to go back on the lexapro - i wont be able to drink :( and i LOVE to drink. oh wells. if it helps for a few months and gets me back to normal, then i guess it wont be so bad, right?? anyways, close to a couple of people, espeically A. hes good guy and makes me laugh. when we're drunk we have these really amazing deep thoughtful (well at the time they are deep and thoughful) conversations like i havent had in a long, long time. we're supposed to go to a hockey game together for his birthday in october. which im excited for. i havent been to a ice hockey game in YEARS. too bad its not an nhl game, but its a game and it will suffice for now. anyways time for a break. Labels: anxiety, paranoia, work 30 was crazy. hyperventilated all day and then sarah, josh, mike, richard and i got wasted. well at least i did. lol. i wanted something bigger but yeah. we went to the states and that was pretty cool. visited my mom in florida and met her new husband who is okay but yeah. i think hes a little impatient and close minded but im not married to him. its weird though, he has a lot of similar traits as my dad, but i wont dare tell my mother that. shed kill me. lol. we met up with some detnetters in nyc (adam, chrissy and ray) and had a pretty amazing time. we all got drunk together and thus mike and i missed the last train back to babylon and had to wait until 4.45 to catch the next one. well over 2 hours. mike being drunk wanted to get a cab to get us back but i told him it be too expensive. thankfully chrissy talked him out of it as well. lol. when we finally got on the train, we passed out at around merrick and were woken by the conductor in babylon. lol. we went to orlando and that was pretty cool. we both were sunburnt and i think i left mikes slippers in the hotel room. he keeps insisting it was on purpose but wasnt. oh wellsat least theyre gone, accident or not. lol. we rode opn a bunch of rides, including the mummy. we both didnt know it was a roller coaster until last minute. i hate those things. anyways we sat down on the seat and right as the damn belt came across our laps to lock us in i tried to get up to get out but it was too late. i was stuck. i cried (bawled actually) through the whole ride and holding onto mikes arm (i think i actually bit him at one point on accident) the entire time. they take those photos of you of how you look on the ride and you can see me crying and holding onto mike for dear life. i feel bad for the others on our ride and had to buy that. lol. we did massive amounts of shopping (yay to the $2 to £1 exchange rate atm!) and i finally have new underwear for the first time in about 3 years. lol. chrissy liked us enough to let us know that her mom works for ba and would get us bumped up to club (business) class. we couldnt check in online and had to arrive a little early at jfk for it to work and it did, though we didnt know it at the time. we checked in at the desk and the woman behind the counter tells us we have an invite for the executive lounge and to proceed there. we were slightly disappointed because we still had steerage seats. so we do some shopping before hand and then proceed to the lounge. we were welcomed and told we will need to recheck in before dinner. we enter and were amazed. theres a molton brown spa, computers, free newspapers. it was like wow. then we proceeded further and saw there were chaise loungers and free food like pot noodles, cookies, fruit and sandwiches. as were sitting around relaxing (it is heaven in there) we hear our names being paged over the terminal loud speakers (they managed to say my last name right!!) and we report to the front desk again. the woman asks for ouor boarding passes and we say sure. she then takes out mikes visa and proceeds to rip the up. my jaw dropped. i was thinking to myself nooooooooo i need to get home! she then prints out new ones with seats 3 & 4 written on them and tells us to proceed back to the lounge. we sat there gob smacked! we were actually sitting in BUSINESS CLASS. lol. we tried to get the seats we were sitting in originally and they were taken. walk further to the back of the lounge and notice the bar. its FREE. lol. so i sat drinking white wine while mike had some chinese beer. we then notice theres dinner being served so we proceed to the dining area. omg. sooo good. i had some roast beef with potatoes and was in heaven. i forgot what mike ate. lol. we than drank more wine and beer. had a selection of really nice cheeses for dessert. i was full from that alone. lol. we then proceed to board the plane. before our stuff is stowed away in the overhead im asked if i would like a glass of still water, orange juice or champagne. guess what i took? lol. mike then turns to me and asks where did i get that from? i told him and he laughed. we had those seats that are like beds and just spread out. feet up, shoes off and just chilled. i drank champagne the entire flight. had fillet mignon for dinner, some omg belgian chocolate cheesecake for dessert. hot towels. newspapers. it was heaven. now i know why the rich fly this way. just heavinly. if we ever get married i so want to fly to wherever we go on our honeymoon first class. ahhhhh. i so owe chrissy a massive favor. we received the keys to the house two weeks ago. that was a great feeling. we are now home owners. weve bought two sofas (a two and three seater), a king sized bed and a brand new washer/dryer. we bought andrew and catherines old fridge for £70 just to save money. were going to buy a brand new one in the year end during all the clearance sales. we only need to get a cooker and well be okay for now. oh and computer desks and kitchen table with chairs. lol. we have nothing. jon came to visit two weeks ago so i got to give him a tour of sheffield. lol. he loves this place and agrees with me its a billion times better then london. no pretentiousness or attitude, just really awesome people. we took him to amsterdam and had a freaking blast. we all got extremely wasted and worn out. i was soooo drunk and stoned it was amazing. i love that city and were planning a massive trip to go back in october time. can not waaaaait. its going to be soooo awesome. <3 to amsterdam ive also been interviewing again and almost had two jobs. one was really really good, but i was overlooked as the other candidate had SAGE experience where i didnt and another role were i didnt get it because i have too much experience. gah. i went on another interview on friday for a temp to perm role and i think it went pretty well. its with a ms subsidiary though its as receptionist they do promote from within so who knows. id like to get it so im back working with the EOC again. i miss those guys :( well see. ill post pics to all of the above when they finally get posted. jesus its been a long crazy few weeks. lol. Labels: america, amsterdam, british airways, house, Temp Agencies, travel, work bahahahaha WARNING POSSIBLY CONTAINS SEASON 3 SPOILERS ive filed a complaint against them and i will deter anyone in sheffield from using search recruiting. fucking cowboys. £@$%£$%$£% im still so god damn mad at what theyve done to me its not even funny. :\ below is the complaint ive sent in: I had found this agency through a job search on monster.co.uk. I rang them about a business to business customer care role and they said they would see me for an interview. When I came to meet with them, the role was suddenly filled and no longer available. Then they pretty much made me feel forced into signing on for temp work with them, even though I clearly told them I was only interested in straight to perm work. Labels: Job Hunting, sheffield, Temp Agencies We talked about her going into therapy when everything is said and done and shes heavily considering it. Shes gone through a lot since June 2005 and I dont think she knows how to handle everything thats happened to her. I just hope she gets better soon. Im glad well be there in a month and Ill get to see her. I think its giving her something to look forward to while shes stuck in a bed. My mum and her husband are taking Mike and I to Universal and Orlando while were there. Leaving West Palm on friday night and return on Sunday. Should be fun. I havent been there in well over 20 years. Hah. I feel old now. But it will be Mikes first time to Florida and you cant expect a Brit to travel all the way to Florida and NOT go to Orlando. Its just not natural. lol. Apparently Universal has all the restaurants and not roller coaster rides. Its a shame that the back to the future ride will be closed by then (closes on my birthday) :( I wonder what we can do for those two days?? we bought a house or something We bought a house. wewt. And its around the corner from Sarahs. Its lovely. Its 4 floors high and has a finished double cellar and a large attic. Mike said it will be 4 weeks till we get the keys in our hands and then the house will be ours. We'll move in June time as thats when the lease to here is up. Its going to be expensive for a while £500 a month for the first few years as we need a loan to pay for the furniture and such . Oh wells, its ours. heh. Labels: america, debt, house, Sister Labels: complaining, rant, whine show was great even got up on stage (and fell) with the band. wewt. the lead singer was clearly on something otherwise id have more videa and probably better sound. southtown girls wont blow you away.... Labels: concerts, music, the hold steady, the leadmill, video, youtube The Simpsons Movie... Labels: movies, the simpsons, tv, youtube just some highlights from friday night: Black Magic, that blows your mind away..... Setlist is incomplete. Stupid me for drinking :( fat children dont let him waste your time stormy weather one man show i will kill again tonight auschwiz to ipswhich (i wrote it down but i lost it) big julie disney time big stuff black magic _____________ cunts are running the world heaven (talking heads cover) unknown track to myself he was on stage for about 2 hours. lots of banter with the crowd. rumour has it richard hawley was supposed to be there, but his father passed away last weekend. Labels: jarvis cocker, music, pictures, sheffield, video |