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Wednesday, September 01, 2004

so now im back in ny... joy. packed my car filled with crap.. i still dont know how i fit it all in.. heh.. but i got here.. and in lesss than three hours as well in ny rush hour traffic. heh. im glad to be back but at the same time im not. the upside is, one more move left.. :]

speaking of which, ive got to find a way to get to england. i think i may not qualify for my heritage visa.. which could suck. outside of marrying mike, i think i could be shit outta luck. ugh. though his mother mentioned it to him, we could get engaged and see how it goes.

aCk.. engaged.. i mean i love him with every ounce in my body and, we're awesome right now and i dont think things could change as they go on.. but id like to be engaged at the right time.. not for me to be there. plus i want to get there on my own needs not on him. this is about me being dependant on me not anyone else. plus, if im there on a fiancee visa. we'd have to get MARRIED in 6 months of me arriving. i mean, we're a rushed relationship and stuff, but meeting and married in less than a year? heh.. i can see myself with him forever, but THIS fast? aHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. we'll see what happens. im going into nyc on thursday to talk to the consulate and ask some more questions since they refuse to answer my emails or phone calls. heh.

i do love him. i really do, but i want this relationship to run its course normally, notall rushed up. im flattered his mother wants us together (i think it because she sees her son finally happy with someone and hes about that age to start to settle down...), but i want to happen when its meant to happen, not at the hand of goverment. eh.


posted by: Kerri at 4:04 am
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