utter nonsense

Friday, September 13, 2002

okay. i'm sitting here at work and i'm actually thinking. granted i'm thinking of boys, but what else is new? heh, what to do with them all.

barry is trying to make me hate him. well, at least i think he is. i know he likes to push buttons and all, but, like, what he's saying is going BEYOND pushing buttons . I wish he still wasn't in love with lesly. fucking bitch.

and jelani is... i don't know anymore. i do like him, but it's just i think i freak him out. i think.

alex is pissed with me cause i lied to him, so now i think i've lost one of my closer dave friends. alex, if you're reading this, i'm incredieably sorry. please forgive me.

work sucks. i need a new job. i think i'm going to looking on sunday and go into a new field. maybe reception work while i go back to school. i want to do graphic design. it's an okay career and i can get my degree int wo year. well maybe something else. i want to do something in the field of computers. i do know that. i love computers.

this is going to be somewhat long and winded on blooger (jelani), even though it's only a page and a half on legal note paper. heh, yeap, i can talk.

so i need sex. i'm starving for it. masturbation has lost it's fun, you know? i want to be making love. staring deep into someone's eyes, touching and exploring their bodies, being one with someone. i miss that the most. just being totally intimate with someone and only feeling like you two are the only two people in the world that actually matter. you know that started off really skanky, and wrong and then turned meaningful. how does that happen?

so okay. maybe i don't need sex, i do need someone. to inspire me, make me want to be a better person, you know?

great, now i'm on a second page of mindless dribble. typing this later tonight should be fun.

yeah, so basically, i need someone to be able to love me back.


posted by: Kerri at 4:45 am
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